April 16, 2007
I wish ;
that everything was like before, where I could just study from morning to night, sleep, wake up in the middle of the night, study, go back to sleep, wake up in the morning, study, eat, study, sleep.
But no - everything's just so different.
Just like it surfaced overnight ; I just don't like studying anymore.
If there was something impossible I could change, I'd turn back the time just to make it all perfect - you, me, us, everyone ; just like all the endings in the fairytales we've all been deceived by, spoonfed with since young. And I'd just create a world that's all cheery and such. No fights, wars, hate, agony, pain and suffering.
Teacher gossip has recently become politics among the teachers and other students, as long as it doesn't concern me, I'm fine. Just don't ask me to participate. For all you know, they're 2 headed teachers and students all around. I'm so not going to look like an ugly creature with two heads. Looking like one ugly old hag stressed out from everything possible is enough.
Petition, and more petition. The one and only one I ever had didn't work out too well, but I'm glad it didn't because that teacher wasn't that bad after all. This time I'm quite sure it'd work but it's just another teacher's strategy to make use of the students to help, whatever. Since it concerns my studies, I'd participate, else I'd have just said, go away.
; my life wasn't as fucked up as it is now.
; it's just the way I wanted it.
-nIx- @ [[1:29 PM]]
I wish ;
that everything was like before, where I could just study from morning to night, sleep, wake up in the middle of the night, study, go back to sleep, wake up in the morning, study, eat, study, sleep.
But no - everything's just so different.
Just like it surfaced overnight ; I just don't like studying anymore.
If there was something impossible I could change, I'd turn back the time just to make it all perfect - you, me, us, everyone ; just like all the endings in the fairytales we've all been deceived by, spoonfed with since young. And I'd just create a world that's all cheery and such. No fights, wars, hate, agony, pain and suffering.
Teacher gossip has recently become politics among the teachers and other students, as long as it doesn't concern me, I'm fine. Just don't ask me to participate. For all you know, they're 2 headed teachers and students all around. I'm so not going to look like an ugly creature with two heads. Looking like one ugly old hag stressed out from everything possible is enough.
Petition, and more petition. The one and only one I ever had didn't work out too well, but I'm glad it didn't because that teacher wasn't that bad after all. This time I'm quite sure it'd work but it's just another teacher's strategy to make use of the students to help, whatever. Since it concerns my studies, I'd participate, else I'd have just said, go away.
; it's just the way I wanted it.
-nIx- @ [[1:29 PM]]
